You either get it all, or you really get nothing

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Would you believe that 3 minutes after these pictures one of them was screaming at me because apparently it was my fault their tiger was left in another room (it wasn’t), and one was tired and screaming for me to feed them, and one was trapped in an empty tub screaming for me to get them out. 🙃

But at 10:30pm tonight I pulled up these pictures because all I feel myself remembering about the evening is them laughing together while I sang and played with them at bath time. It’s an amazing phenomenon. Because was their screaming and needing me stressful? Insanely. It’s trauma level stress because there is only one of me. But it passes so fast. And I know I will look back at this season one day and my brain will trick me into missing the screaming and the needing me. I might even say I want it back. Because what I’ll remember most is how I felt taking this picture. And with parenting you can’t separate it. You can’t have one without the other. With the screaming and neediness also comes the laughter and smiles, sometimes within just minutes of each other. And with parenting…. it’s all or nothing. And I’m really really glad for it all.